When I look back on the past year and a half, I am amazed by all that we’ve been through together. We often joke that at this point we could open our own fertility clinic with everything that we have learned. There have been many tears and a lot of prayers over these past 16 months. It’s so funny to me when I think about how easy we thought it would be to get pregnant. I mean seriously… I started our blog in August of last year thinking “this is going to be perfect, we will be pregnant soon and this blog will be our way of documenting our adventures in motherhood.” As those who have followed our blog know – things didn’t really go according to plan. The crazy thing is that even though it took us 16 months to make our little miracle, I wouldn’t change a thing. Every month that past, every negative pregnancy test and every tear, made our desire to become mamas all that much stronger. We made our minds up that this was going to happen and that we were going to do whatever we had to do to meet our baby. I’m proud of us for that. It’s ridiculous that we humans think that we can control our destiny. Here we thought that after 15 months of trying to get pregnant, Georgia needed a break and it was time to switch to me. Luckily for us, God had other plans.
G and I both decided that we didn’t want to “go public” with the news until at least the 13th week. Because of this and because I didn’t want to forget anything about our first trimester, I started a little diary. We are overjoyed to share “The Mommy Diaries” with all of you! We hope you enjoying reading about our journey thus far!
The Mommy Diaries ~ It all started with a “YES”
July 8, 2011 ~ YES!
After what felt like the longest two weeks EVER, Georgia and I took a pregnancy test this morning. I think we both felt like time was standing still because getting pregnant is the most important thing to us and we’ve been working on this for almost a year and a half now. We woke up this morning knowing full well what an important day it was going to be. The house was really quite as we had our coffee and breakfast. I don’t think either of us was in a rush to take the test because we were both a little scared. I hate to admit this, but we had some real doubts and fears on this, our 7th try in 15 months. After breakfast I looked over and ask Georgia “you ready?” She nodded yes and we headed to the bathroom. Following the test we had to wait three minutes to check the results so I put the test stick on top of the fridge and we cleaned up the kitchen (I do realize that peeing on a stick and placing it on top of the refrigerator is a bit random… I was out of sorts). When it came time to check the results I suddenly got cold feet. I’ve been the one to check the six previous times and I felt so nervous I wanted Georgia to be the one to do the deed. Well, following a little back and forth, we decided to look together. Arm and arm we slowly turned the stick over and read the beautiful word we had been longing for, YES!
There was total silence for what felt like a full minute and then we both burst into tears. We hugged, kissed, shouted, I cheered and then we cried a little more. All I kept saying was, “it says yes, it says yes!!” OH MY GOD! I also said shit several times as did Georgia. We were both in total shock – it was crazy! Before taking the test we had decided that we wouldn’t tell anyone right away. Well that plan flew right out the window the minute we got the results. Following our celebration we both said at almost the same time that we needed to call our moms. Then I called my sis and Georgia called her brother. We spent the rest of the day letting our close friends know and I’m talking literally the entire day! I think Sara and I talked for almost 3 hours.
It has been such an amazing day. I’ve kissed Georgia’s belly about a hundred times. I’ve registered us on a few baby websites and I think we’ve both taken a 2nd, 3rd… 10th look at the test just to be sure. Tomorrow Georgia has a few blood tests that she’ll need to take to check her levels, so for tonight we will say a little prayer and get some rest. Life is good.
Yes friends, Georgia’s HCG level is eighty-eight! Those were the results we got today from our nurse and my God; she couldn’t have called a minute sooner. You see, I’m a worrier and my worrying began last night. Finding out that my beautiful wife was going to have our baby was the most amazing, wonderful news EVER, but once the wonderfulness wore off a bit… the worrying began. I couldn’t help but remember the last time we were in the same place. What many of our friends and family don’t know is that we had a miscarriage in February of this year. We found out we were pregnant, we were elated, we went to the doctor the following day and had Georgia’s blood tested. This was the beginning of what was easily the hardest thing we’ve ever been through and the longest 8 ½ weeks of our lives. Just like today, the nurse called us with Georgia’s HCG level, only on that day it was 17, not 88.
Because this was our previous experience, waiting for that call was the worst 5 hours one can imagine. When the nurse finally did call, Georgia ran over to get me (one of the perks of working with my wife) and we both went into an office. The nurse told us that Georgia’s HCG test came back and that it was 88. We looked at each other and asked at the same time, “is that good?!” She then proceeded to tell us that 88 was very good. She told us that they look for a minimum of 50 and that 88 is a great result. She also told us that as long as the number continues to double every two days we’re good. So that’s where we are tonight. Waiting again but so thankful for the good news we received today. We are also so grateful for our friends and family. They were with us back in February and they are with us today, praying for us, encouraging us, being strong for us.
Thank God for them and thank God for our little miracle.
July 13, 2011 ~ St. Patty’s Baby! Well, almost :)
Yesterday was such an amazing day. The day started out a bit stressful because we were waiting on the results of G’s second blood test. The nurse had told us on Monday that Georgia’s numbers were good but that they needed to double by Wednesday. I had read somewhere once that when you’re praying for something important you need to be specific and pray for exactly what you are seeking whether it is guidance, a resolution, etc. With this in mind I asked our circle to pray that Georgia’s test came back at 200. Around 2pm we still hadn’t heard from our specialist and we were starting to go into panic mode. I finally told Georgia that we should just call because chances were they had the results but just didn’t have a chance to call us yet.
Together we went to a conference room at work and rang the hospital. One of the nurses, Holly, answered and went over the results with us. She let us know that not only had Georgia’s HCG went up, but it tripled!!! This was such an answer to prayer so of course I cried (which seems to be all I do these days… you would think I was the pregnant one). She let us know that we were 4 weeks along and due on March 16th, 2012! I’m sure this date will change several times but it was still pretty amazing to hear our date for the first time. In that moment, I fell suddenly and irrevocably in LOVE with the month of March!
After talking to the moms (and George), we sent out a mass follow-up text to Dean, Missy and the rest of the peeps to give them the good news. The only way that I can fully explain how we felt for the remainder of this day, is that we were walking on sunshine!
A couple days ago Georgia found this very cool website that tells you what your baby is up to each week of development. The site also gives you an idea of how big your baby is by comparing it to food. Here’s what our little one is up to at 4 weeks.
How your baby's growing: 4 Weeks
This week marks the beginning of the embryonic period. From now until 10 weeks, all of your baby's organs will begin to develop and some will even begin to function. Right now your baby is an embryo the size of a poppy seed, consisting of two layers: the epiblast and the hypoblast, from which all of her organs and body parts will develop. Also present now are the amniotic sac, which will house your baby; the amniotic fluid, which will cushion her as she grows; and the yolk sac, which produces your baby's red blood cells and helps deliver nutrients to her until the placenta has developed and is ready to take over this duty.
I promised Georgia that I would only make her take a profile pic once a month and not every week. So here is the first of 10 pictures – my lady at 4 weeks!
July 18, 2011 ~ 5 weeks and 1 sleepy wife!
Yesterday we returned from our camping trip to Pecos (baby’s FIRST camping trip!!) and we celebrated 5 weeks! We had a blast playing in the mountains. I did blog about the trip but had to leave out any mention of baby Roybal seeing as s/he is still an embryo. Georgia was such a trooper! She had energy the whole time and slept really well. Thus far she hasn’t had any “morning sickness” but she does get a little queasy in the evenings and when she eats big meals. Over the past 5 weeks her symptoms have been what she has described as a tight feeling tummy, sore breasts, 24/7 hunger and sleepiness with the occasional headache. If you ask me, the sleepiness is what’s hitting her hardest. Sunday when we got back from the mountains we did a little cleaning, watched some TV and went to bed. Luckily we were off on Monday because Georgia literally slept ALL DAY (I’m talking 6 hour nap people)! I finally woke her up around 7:30pm because I was afraid that she was going to get dehydrated and also needed to eat. Following dinner she was back down for the count and didn’t drag her sleepy bones out of bed until 8:30am Tuesday morning, which is about 30 minutes before she needed to leave for work! Ha, I love it.
I’ve also recently become obsessed with taking pictures of her sleeping. I don’t know why I do the things I do :)
The more symptoms Georgia has the happier I feel. When she complains of headaches I’m like “great!” When she says she’s hungry I feed her in-between meal snacks (which are always healthy). When she tells me her tummy feels weird I quickly follow with “weird how… like cramps… let me see… does it hurt… let me touch it… how does it feel… etc.” I’m so annoying, it’s awesome.
On the trip, we shared with our close guy friends that G was prego because we knew they would be suspicious with her not drinking. From that moment on, the ongoing joke became BABY’S FIRST everything. When we got in the river everyone shouted, baby’s first swim in the river! When G had breakfast it was – baby’s first camping breakfast. The joke quickly became absolutely ridiculous but had us all hysterically laughing the whole weekend! Monday we have our first ultrasound and we are feeling all sorts of emotions. Thank god we have a wedding, a birthday BBQ and a family get together this weekend. Monday can’t come fast enough...
How your baby's growing: 5 Weeks
Deep in your uterus your embroyo is growing at a furious pace. At this point, he’s about the size of a sesame seed, and he looks more like a tiny tadpole than a human. He's now made up of three layers — the ectoderm, the mesoderm, and the endoderm, which will later form all of his organs and tissues. The neural tube — from which your baby's brain, spinal cord, nerves, and backbone will sprout, is starting to develop in the top layer, called the ectoderm. His heart and circulatory system begin to form in the middle layer, or mesoderm. (This week, in fact, his tiny heart begins to divide into chambers and beat and pump blood.)
I’m going to try to get G to write some of the entries in this, our mommy diary/baby book. Hopefully she’ll be up to writing our 6-week post following the ultrasound! We’ll see…
July 27, 2011 ~ 6 weeks and first ultrasound
According to G…
Our little stinker is finally on the way! July 25, 2011 was the start of week 6 for us. Most people are just finding out that they are pregnant around week 6 but we’ve known for a few weeks now because of the special processes that we have had to encounter to get pregnant. I don’t know what I was expecting to feel once I was actually pregnant. I guess I thought because you are growing a human that you would feel every tiny change and it would be painful. Literally, it has been just the way all the books and moms tell you it will be with sore breasts and morning sickness. I have been sore pretty much everywhere in my torso but I’ve been lucky that the morning sickness has been pretty mild… knock on wood. Week 6 has been the most anticipated for us because our first ultrasound was scheduled for Monday. We were so nervous but excited at the same time. My lady was so nervous that while we were in the room waiting for the doctor she had to step out for a moment to take some deep breaths. We just wanted so badly to hear that we had a growing baby and everything seemed normal, unlike our previous experience. When K came back in we said a prayer together and then Dr. Caperton joined us to start the ultrasound. Immediately, we saw a black circle on the screen (the embryonic sac) and inside that dark area was a tiny yolk sac and a tiny little baby. Even though everything on the screen was so tiny it was the most precious moment because we knew right then that for sure we had a little baby on the way. Dr. Caperton said it looked perfect! These days, there is so much information available to describe the development process that your baby is experiencing each week. We read that sometime during week 6, you have the first opportunity to see the flicker of a heartbeat in an ultrasound. Sure enough our stinker was trying to say hi! Right when I asked the doctor about a heartbeat we saw a flicker on the screen! It was so exciting but it was only a tease so Dr. Caperton suggested that we return to his office at the end of the week to see if we can get a little more activity… how lucky are we! We will keep you posted as the weeks and months go on and baby continues to grow.
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Is it crazy that I already think our baby is super cute? I told Missy this very thing and her response was “cute, really?! Ha!
How your baby's growing: 6 Weeks
This week's developments: The nose, mouth, and ears. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute — almost twice as fast as yours — and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs have appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones. Right now, your baby is a quarter of an inch long, about the size of a lentil.
We have a heartbeat!
During our 7-week check-up, we got the surprise of a lifetime! As I posted last week, Georgia and I went in the Monday of week 6 for our first ultrasound. This was a very early ultrasound and our doctor told us not to expect too much considering our baby was about the size of a lentil. He told us that most women don’t even know that they are expecting at this point, and don’t usually have an ultrasound until after week 9. He said that because of this, we shouldn’t get scared if we didn’t see a heartbeat. Our doc was totally right – baby Roybal was teenie tiny. Because the appointment didn’t show any clear signs of a heartbeat (although G said that she noticed a little something), he suggested that we come back that Friday to take another look.
As planned, we returned 5 days later (so technically we were 6 weeks and 5 days which is practically 7 weeks). Georgia climbed up onto the table and we held hands, both feeling a little nervous. Up to this point, I thought we were just going in to see the heartbeat on the screen. Nothing could have prepared us for what happened next. One minute we’re squinting to see what we thought would be a tiny flicker of our baby’s heart and then, BUM, BUM… BUM, BUM… BUM, BUM… BUM, BUM! We heard our baby’s heartbeat and it was beautiful and so fast! I of course burst into tears and G had a huge grin from ear to ear. The doctor showed us the sac and the frequency of the heartbeat – 120bpm. He told us that everything looked good that the beats per minute were exactly what they should be. He then gave us our picture and sent us on our way.
Most nights G is completely exhausted by the time she gets home but is still able to make dinner once a week or so. I think we have a good system going thus far. We usually prep our meals on Sunday, I cook most during the weekdays and she grills for us on the weekends when she is able to rest more during the day. We’re hoping that we can incorporate a little more exercise in week 8. We’ll see :)
Here is our little bean at just about 7 weeks. We have a week 8 check-up on the 12th where we’re going to try and get a more zoomed in pic!
How your baby's growing: 7 Weeks
The big news this week: hands and feet are emerging from developing arms and legs! Technically, your baby is still considered an embryo and has something of a small tail, which is an extension of the tailbone. Your baby has doubled in size since last week and now measures an inch long, about the size of a blueberry. If you could see inside your womb, you’d spot eyelid folds partially covering her eyes, which already have some color, as well as the tip of her nose and tiny veins beneath parchment-thin skin. A loop in your baby’s growing intestines is bulging into her umbilical cord, which now has distinct blood vessels to carry oxygen and nutrients to and from her tiny body.
August 8, 2011 ~ It’s officially week 8, how are you feeling lady?
According to G…
This morning sickness stuff is definitely “touch and go” right now! I feel yucky! I haven’t tossed my cookies (yet) but for the past few days that yucky motion sickness, queasy at the thought of food feeling has been more of a constant. It’s on and off all day and all night. Last night my only option was to go to sleep at like 10pm (which if you know me is WAAAAYYYYY early). I can eat but definitely less than what I’m used to and as I’m eating some bites make it down a little easier than others. Everything grosses me out right now, especially Taco Bell commercials. Again, I’m not the sensitive, weak stomach type, so these feelings are definitely foreign to me. I’m just thankful that it’s not so bad that it really affects my behavior or my ability work (because I’m a geek, these are the things I worry about).
August 12, 2011 ~ Feeling Thankful
We are so blessed to have awesome insurance. During our most recent doctor’s visit, we had our 3rd ultrasound and we are only 8 weeks! Not only do most women not have a first ultrasound until around 10-12 weeks, but many are lucky to have 3 ultrasounds throughout their entire pregnancy. Both G and I realized how very blessed we are to have an insurance plan that allows us to see our little bean so often and one that actually covers a portion of the cost of fertility treatment. In our 7-week visit I was so caught off guard when we heard little bean’s heartbeat for the first time that I didn’t even think to record it. I was much more prepared during our 8-week visit and made sure to catch everything on video!
Here is the most recent picture and video of our little stinker at 8 weeks and 5 days! We couldn’t believe how much s/he grew in just 2 weeks time. It’s all so exciting for us!
Our next and probably last appointment with our fertility doc is in 2 weeks. By then we will be 11 weeks – ekkkk!
How your baby's growing: 8 Weeks