Georgia arrived right before my ultrasound (thankfully) because I wouldn’t want to do that alone and the u/s confirmed that I’m probably not going to get a period this month either. Damn you, lady parts! We talked with Dr. C about my OPK’s and how they’ve been all over the place and he basically said that OPK’s are unreliable and I shouldn’t worry about it. He thinks that our plan of action will likely involve Clo.mid and Proges.terone right off the bat, which is what I kind of figured he would say.
So now the ball’s in our court and Dr. C is going to just wait to hear from us to get things going. Georgia and I both agreed that we’re not going to do anything until I’ve accepted a permanent position. So for now, we wait and wait some more. Blah, blah, blah…
In other exciting news, I’m going through a bit of depression. Nothing that would require meds but I have felt rather blue these past two months. I try to be a positive person and if you’ve followed my blog for some time now, you likely think I’m a super happy positive person 24/7, which is not always the case. I’m more of a pessimist/realist and I tend to slip into negativity easily so I try to always be aware of it. When the lay-off happened 5 weeks ago, the days that followed were horrible. Since then I’ve tried focusing on the positives… G still has a job, I have enough savings to supplement my income through November, our little gal is happy and healthy and while our TTC efforts have been put on hold, we have an amazing daughter to cuddle every day and that makes all the difference. With that being said, I still have tough days (more often in the past two months than ever before) and then I feel bad about feeling bad. It’s a vicious cycle. I’m almost afraid that if I allow myself to feel sad or angry or stressed, more bad things will happened because I’m not being thankful for what I’ve been blessed with. I’m going to blame my Catholic upbringing for these mixed emotions… ;)
I started job searching last week and I had my first interview today. I’m thinking it went pretty well because they called an hour later to schedule a second interview! I’ve submitted two other applications that I’m waiting to hear back on so here’s hoping I find something by the end of the month. August 30th is the deadline I’ve set for myself… fingers crossed.
Anyway, that concludes my random, “Debbie Downer” of a post. Thanks for listening. :)
And thank goodness for this little cutie! Yes, those are my underwear on her head… that’s what I get for trying to fold laundry while she was still awake, haha!