With TTC #1, before the wife and I even picked a donor and before we found our RE or began saving, we baby shopped. We bought baby stuff while on vacation, at Costco, the grocery store… we were pretty ridiculous. We were just so flippin’ excited! I remember us walking through the mall about a year before G’s first insemination when we came across the tree decal that is now in Gracie’s nursery. Even though TTC was months from happening and even though we had no way of knowing that we would have a girl, we bought it. We just couldn’t help ourselves. It’s really all we talked about. So much so that we’ve often joked that we can’t believe our friends still talk to us as we know how annoying the baby talk must have become after awhile… Thanks for sticking around guys. ;)
That same feeling, that electricity and overwhelming excitement doesn’t seem to be here right now, for either of us. And while I totally get that it is our second go at this baby making stuff, it’s a first for me. I’ve never been pregnant before. It’s actually pretty terrifying and while I was there every step of the way throughout G’s pregnancy, I imagine it will feel much different with baby #2 considering I’ll be the one growing the human this time. It’s crazy to even type that!
I truly hope it doesn’t sound like I’m feeling sorry for myself, because while I do feel a little boo, hoo about the overall lack of enthusiasm in our house, it’s kind of to be expected, right? The first time is after all, the first time. It’s the unknown, the new, the exciting. So I guess my question is, what does that leave for round 2? Anything?
Well, that’s all for now from this 2nd born, middle child. I’m sure there’s no correlation between that and the way I’ve been feeling. No connection at all. ;)