Thursday, July 14, 2016

My blog hiatus is OVER!

Hi guys! It’s Kristin here… I’m still alive and doing well, lol! It’s been nearly 4 months since my last post and there are a few reasons why. The first being that I completely filled 100% of the storage space on my MacBook. Yes, it is possible to do this, especially when you take as many pictures as me. I started having space issues in December and tried dealing with it by deleting unwanted pictures, which worked for a short while. Then in early April, I went to edit photos and my iPhoto wouldn’t even open. Fast-forward a month and I finally decided that I needed to take my computer in to the Genius Bar. I did this and the “genius” who helped me, deleted my entire iPhoto Library!!! I didn’t restart and discover this until I got home and when I called the Apple Store in a panic, they told me that this is why techs always require customers to take advised steps when working on their computers at the store and don’t actually put their hands on our computers. In other words, they told me that while they were sorry this happened, I was the one who deleted everything and it was not their fault. I tried explaining that I literally followed the steps exactly as they were given to me, which resulted in losing all of my pictures, but they didn’t really care. I was devastated, as in, I shed real tears more than a few times before giving up. I let another couple of weeks go by before deciding that there was no way in hell I was going to just allow 10 years of family photos (including all our wedding photos and every picture we ever took of Gracie) to just disappear without a fight, ha! I spent about a week on the phone with Apple Tech Support and after several phone consultations and one amazing tech rep, we recovered my pictures!

This whole ordeal left me in a state of total paranoia. Fearing that I could lose all of our memories again, I decided it was time to catch-up on our family photo albums and that’s what I’ve been doing for the past 2 months. I’ve caught up on making birthday albums for all of Gracie’s birthdays, years 1 through 4. I’ve made a big album of our trip to Disneyland and I’m up to 2014 on our annual family photo albums. These photo books are such a labor of love but soooo important to me, because for as many pictures as I take of this little family of ours, what’s the use if they spend the rest of time on a hard drive? I LOVE looking through the albums my mom made of our wonder years and I know Gracie will too, mostly because she’s already obsessed with them and asks to look at them, just about every week. :)

Aside from the picture drama keeping me away from blogland, our lives have been just way too busy. The kiddo has us occupied with activities 5-6 days a week and when we come home from gymnastics or dance class or swim school or preschool or whatever we’re doing that day – and then have to go through the dinner/bath time/bedtime routine, I can barely muster the strength to stare at my phone for 30 minutes before falling asleep. How you parents with more than one kid do it, I have no idea but just know that you are all super heroes in my book!

I really do miss having a job that allowed me some time to type up a quick blog post while working. I honestly didn’t realize that so many of the creative things I love to do, I did while on the clock at work in my previous position… With my current organization, I am the HR manager for 150+ employees. My department consists of 2 people and for several months it was just me, keeping it all together. Up until about a month ago, I was working 45+ hour weeks, while also taking calls in the evenings and working some weekends in order to stay caught up. It sucked and so I’m not doing that anymore. If I’m being totally transparent, I would have to say that while I feel fortunate to be gainfully employed, I am not happy where I work and I haven’t been happy since around the time I started. The organization is a hot mess. The turnover is unreal and they do not see the benefits in truly investing in their employees. I’ve been applying for other positions here and there but haven’t been too diligent because we’re also actively TTC with Georgia. I’m torn between wanting to be FMLA eligible so that I can be home with my family if/when G gets pregnant vs. wanting to get the hell out of here! Georgia has tried 5 times so far with a few breaks thrown in and every time we’re in a TWW I tell myself, if she’s pregnant I can hold out for 9 months and then I’ll find something new while on FMLA. But, so far, no BFP.

Our current experience TTC is like night and day in comparison to previous attempts. The main reason for this is that I’m not a crazed TTC maniac. I’m not forcing G to meditate, go to acupuncture several times a week, take a bunch of herbal supplements, us a ton of apps to track all of everything, or eat all those damn fertility foods like I did to myself when I was TTC. That whole experience changed me and showed me what little control we have over the process. I was so unhappy during that time that when I think back, I don’t even feel that was me going through all of those steps. Now we’re taking it a month at a time. When G wants to take a break, we take a break. She goes to acupuncture every other week, takes and prenatal and works on fitness using her Fitbit. We’re so chill about the whole thing that we’ve, at times not even realized it was an important cycle day until the evening. I feel that before, we were so consumed with making a baby that we weren’t truly appreciating the special moments we had with the baby we already made and that’s just crazy! Our focus is now on her and how blessed our life is as the parents of that little stinker. At the end of the day, when you’ve been at this for as long as we have (coming up on 3 years), you just kind of surrender to it and live your life for the family you have and not the family you wish to create.

In other news, my wife is a nut and is currently trying to convince me to TTC again… I never completely took that off the table but my options are also limited for financial reasons. My company has horrible health benefits and offers zero coverage for anything fertility related, so I would need to start a new job before trying again. I’ve asked that we continue to focus on getting G pregnant but in the meantime I’m working hard on weight loss and consistently dropping around 3 pounds every two weeks. I’m also taking my MTHFR meds and baby Aspirin daily, just in case.

There is so many other things going on that I will share SOON! We’ve been checking fun stuff off our Summer Bucket List for months now and I’m thinking that will be one massive post, all in one. We have a new pup named Mavie and her cuteness needs to be shared with anyone still out there reading because she is seriously the cutest! We’ve had lots of visitors, ended another school year and have gone on a whole bunch of adventures. I’ve had Gracie’s 4 year blog post in my drafts since early March, so I will share that soon as well.

It means so much to me that so many of you have messaged, Facebooked and left comments here asking that I end this blogging hiatus. It makes my heart happy to know that you’ve missed us and I’m excited to be back.  - K   



  1. Anonymous14 July, 2016

    You should start using Time Machine! It's so easy, and you will never lose anything on your computer ever again!

    1. I was so upset that once everything was recovered, my wife bought me a really nice G drive, but I have heard of Time Machine. I'll need to Google it and see what it's all about! Thanks!

    2. Anonymous18 July, 2016

      Really simple. If you go into the Apple store, they will help you if needed. Just purchase an external hard drive large enough for the capacity of your computer. Plug it into your USB port; it will ask you if you want to use it as "time machine" and you say yes. Every time you plug it in, it will make a complete new copy of everything on your computer. When your computer crashes, you plug your time machine in once fixed or in your new Mac, click restore, and your computer looks and acts like nothing ever happened. That has worked for me twice so far :)

  2. YAYYYYYY!!! Oh Man I've missed you! Sorry to hear about the crappy work situation. And super yay to the chill TTC! I can't wait to hear more! Welcome back! - Sarah

    1. Hi Sarah, I'm so happy to have a working computer once again and be back in this space! I've felt so disconnected these past couple of months and can't wait to catch up on what you've all been up to. :)

  3. The only thing that would have made me happier would have been if you would have announced that one of the two of you were expecting. :-) I'll be patiently waiting for that post. Stay busy and relaxed. Can you even do both. Probably not. Just glad things are all going well over there.

  4. YAY! So happy to see you back! I recently lost a ton of photos too, not 10 years worth though. My phone crapped out, I also followed a 'geniuses' instructions to back it up before trading it out for a new one :( Luckily most were on Facebook or instagram so I still have them somewhere. Congrats on TTC & being chill about it this go round. Can't wait to see/hear more from you :)

  5. YAY!!! So happy to see you back! I had a similar experience with the genius bar when my phone crapped out & needed replaced. I only lost about a years worth of photos though & luckily I posted a lot to IG or FB so I could get some of the super important ones. Can't wait to see/hear more from you :)

    1. Hi Spring! I'm so happy to be writing in this space again! I know most of us are connected on social media sites but that's just pictures. I've missed reading about the things everyone is up to! I'll be catching up on your blog next. :)

  6. I am SO happy that you are back!!!! I know I pester you now and then on FB for a check in, but you have been greatly missed here. You are one of my favorite bloggers.

    Now, down to the good stuff....
    1) How do you do those albums? I think they are great and I so need to put all my digital images to some sort of hard copy.
    2) You should totally figure out how to BOTH ttc at same time because then you are both sure to end up pregnant and that would make for an epic life and blog ;)
    3) I am very paranoid about losing my pics now and need to figure out that Time Machine thing. A few months ago my MacBook automatically updated (don't you hate when that happens?) and my iPhoto library (including pictures from the last 6 years) were ALL gone and I cried for days and yes eventually talked to a great apple tech who helped me retrieve them. Our action camera got a glitch while on our last Disney cruise and all the photos that I took at Disney World prior to the cruise were lost (thankfully I am a photo taking nut and had plenty from my camera phone, but still not the same) and I was so heartbroken so I totally get that devastation.
    4) Mavis is the CUTEST!
    5) Great summer bucket list! Looking forward to the updates!
    Finally, 6) When you stop caring about TTC that is when it seems you conceive. Keep the "eh, whatever" attitude going and there will be a BFP, I just know it!!!!!!

  7. So happy to read this. Hope you are all well!


Thanks so much for keeping up with our little family! We love reading your comments and will get back to you as soon as we can.

K+G+g+w ♥

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